Monday, September 1

Babies

In the pipeline....


This baby of mine - a little wishful project. I'm attempting to take this passion of mine seriously and, with some amazing cheerleaders by my side, I'm taking the plunge tentatively getting my toes wet. Heck it's got a professional looking logo and a proper URL - that's something right??? I'm slowly notching up some weddings to my name - and well, there are plants growing if not flowering yet... From little things big things grow... I'll be posting flowery updates there if you're interested, and y'know on fbook too.


I did say babies didn't I? Well yes it's true, there's a human one brewing too... hi little person!


Today is the due date of our first baby and it is bittersweet, but mostly oh so sweet, to have this little one doing so well. Such a relief in fact. I (we) feel so so so lucky to be at this stage (15 weeks now)... at this stage.

So you may just find me blogging here more again with this thing happening. Something happy. Something not secret.

This is of course a hot topic, but blogging has changed so much, and in a way it may have come full circle... only a few dedicated old school (?) folks actually reading - maybe commenting (!!!) - and blogging becomes about the blogger again - not being the content provider for the reader.

I think with these two babies brewing, I'm pretty okay with that. I even have a bump photo to post!

Tuesday, August 26

Into the woods







August 2014. Snow in the heavenly magical place called the Sugar Pines.

PS. I'm alive :)

Monday, May 12

Travel...






It had been a while since we travelled. This was a wonderful trip and one that was very hard to come home from. Lucky we love Lola so much...

Saturday, April 5

Holiday...


We're off to the UK for 3 weeks! A holiday is looooong overdue. This time were just squeezing in family and best friends and then taking some time for ourselves to go to Paris! Follow along on facebook or instagram for photo updates.
Much love.

{Amazing sunrise this week over the paddocks}

Tuesday, April 1

It's a rollarcoaster


Two weeks of feeling perfectly fine, chipper, normal. I get my period back - it's a reason to celebrate and also a twinge of pain. Coasting along coasting along. and then whoosh down I plummet into saddness. Another friend announces they're pregnant, they're due 4 weeks after we would have been.

my loss my loss my loss. my heartaches, my belly aches for my loss. Self saddness

we would have been 18 weeks. I would have been feeling it move.

I would have been I would have been...

(pic)

Sunday, March 30

Flowers Lately











* Making a flower crown as a test for a friends wedding. Rosemary, carnation, chrysanthemum, sedum, lambs ear.
* A little jug of leftovers from crown making.
* A new awesome vase from the junk shop! Filled with roses, zinnias, buddleia, elderflower, potato vine from the garden.
* A birthday bouquet for my Mumma also from the garden. Rose, elderflower, fennel, lambs ears and white salvia plus some cuttings from a stunning weeping lime coloured tree that I don't know the name of.
* Mummas birthday cake. A lemon and blueberry number, filled with lemon curd and iced with cream cheese icing.

Monday, March 17

Tread Lightly




Sometimes only chocolate will do. Like when you see on facebook that an acquaintance has just had a baby and she has named her with your longstanding favourite baby name. The name that made you hope you were having a girl.

And it makes you smile at first because it affirms your good taste (the acquaintance is cool) and because you're so happy she's had a beautiful, healthy, baby girl. 

And then it makes you totally bummed (but in an embarrassed kinda way) coz - Dammit, YOU wanted that name. 

And then it smacks you in the guts. Real hard. And it really, really hurts and you're completely shocked by the force of it and left reeling by the heartache you thought you'd gotten over.

And so only chocolate will do. You cry on the phone to your mum in the dark of your porch. And you remind yourself to tread lightly, that you still have to tiptoe around some things. 

Like not listening to Bon Iver for the foreseeable future. 
Pretending that secret pinterest board you made doesn't exist. 
Getting your husband to deal with the birth preparation books from the library that are weeks overdue.
That kind of stuff. 

Tread lightly. Tread lightly.

Friday, March 7

Secrets


It's been hard to write here for a little while. With happy secrets and then crushing sadness and hopefully in the not to distant future, fresh beginnings. Early miscarriage is so common and so not talked about. I dont want to talk about it - and yet - I was frustrated that I couldn't find anyone else who had. I guess that's why we don't traditionally share the news until we're at least twelve weeks. I was eleven.
I was planning on switching to more and more pictures rather than words here but in all honesty I haven't picked up the big camera in weeks - and that was only to take pictures which now no longer have a reason to exist.
I feel a little too exposed here these days. Google my name and this place is the second thing to come up - and the nice thing about a blog, I always found, was a little sense of mystery and anonymity. Especially when you are watched, and what feels like judged, for your job.
Maybe I'll keep posting recipes and maybe I'll keep posting about the garden (its doing great by the way) and maybe, maybe I'll keep posting about country life. But for now being present is keeping me occupied, that, and the garden.

{Image from here, if this is your image I would love to credit you properly}

Monday, January 20

Link Love*


* Actual toys...
* Just some bears, y'know.
* When dinosaurs come to play...
* Mental health on Sesame street...
* Best website for dog lovers ever.
* Who knew playing glass could be this good?!
* Amazing maps that explain the world.
* Beautifully lit films.
* My political bent is pretty obvious, but this is scary.

Friday, January 17

Things to be Thankful for

* Seed saving.
* My parents swimming pool.
* That thesis of Tim's has gone gone gone.
* Beautiful homegrown food
* Holidays.
* Air conditioning at work and in the car.
* That Australians take a perverse pride in suffering extreme heat (43 for us today)
* The Murrumbidgee river and its ice cold mountain source.
* Roses and agapanthus - they'll put up with anything.
* A better start to my working year than it ended.

{looking through the window of Centenary tower in Mt Gambier}

Thursday, January 16

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Just the two of us, watching the sun go down over the sea and then all the cities fireworks at once from the hills. A blissful New Years Eve.

Monday, December 23

Do you hear that?

Rain! Finally! Oh... and radio silence from me. We've finally jumped into Christmas here and will be doing a fair bit of travelling over the next 2 weeks (3 states to be precise!). So probably more quiet from me is to be expected. But here are a couple more flower arrangements I've done recently, and hopefully I find my blogging mojo again in the New Year. Merry Christmas lovely readers.

 Sunflower, allium, onion, elderflower, fennel, artichoke, succulents, borage and queen annes lace all from my garden.
Lilly, eucalyptus, lavender, bottlebrush from a friends garden (who lets me pick his flowers and put flower arrangements in his house!) sadly only captured on an iphone.

Monday, December 16

Link Love for Monday*



* If this doesnt make you happy I don't know what will.
* Amazing urban exploration.
* The world through a sweet mind.
* The juxtapositions of creatives.
* Slow motion dog shaking. Brilliant.
* Genius reenactment of bitchy youtube comments.
* Beautiful photos of snowflakes.
* Henry makes poses.
* How much you're wasting your life.
* An incredibly effective way to waste your life.

{Photo by Dan Marbaix}

Wednesday, December 11

Instead of blogging...

I made Christmas wreaths! Pretty no?! We have a large bay tree in the garden and all I had to do was bunch the stems together and wire it up. One is for my ma, and one for this lovely lady.

ps. I just got a very late birthday/early christmas present of this book. It's dreamy.
pps. I won the Haiku Thank you giveaway over on Che and Fidel! I am as giddy as a school girl! Thank you Jodi- and *hi* if you are visiting!

Wednesday, December 4

5 Senses

Seeing: Homegrown hollyhock & poppies.
Tasting: Cherries. Picked on our mini break to Young.
Smelling: Beautiful Rain! Finally!
Hearing: Chairlift are still on heavy rotation at the moment.
Touching: Rough skin on my feet from sandal wearing. Hello summer!

{What are your 5 senses for today?}