Monday, October 13

Bump - 21 weeks

Over half way! Baby (yes, we do know the sex, no, I'm not putting it on the internet, yes, I will tell you face to face) is a total ninja! I actually got kicked in the lung today! My frock was sent in a gorgeous care package from a sweet friend who is about to have her first baby too - I'm all about the stretchy dresses from now on I reckon. We've also received some of the most lovely gifts from family and friends. There's a rapidly growing pile for BabyK in the sunroom, which freaks me out a little bit whenever I see it: ohh my gosh, we're actually going to use this stuff!

Okay and this is what it mostly looks like when Timmy tries to take our bump picture...

Monday, September 22

Bump - 18 weeks

18 weeks today (look at me go posting this on time)! We have a real wriggler on our hands baby moves so much and it makes me grin like a silly thing every time. I've been trying to keep a diary to keep a track of this amazing process. It's a mix of stories, blood test dates, scan pictures and safety regulations that I've noted down... and I think that's probably a fairly accurate description of this process... Full steam ahead with organisation, trying to remember all the different appointments to be had and just revelling in the little tiny moments.
Ps. Two weeks until we know boy or girl? Place your bets folks!

...And the outtakes (never work with fussy pregnant people who are a little alarmed by their size or animals)

Thursday, September 11

Bump - 16 Weeks

16 weeks (last Monday) and baby is the size of an avocado - my favourite fruit! On Sunday on the drive home from a Sydney wedding we felt our first kick! It was amazing and brought tears to my eyes! It's something I've tried to imagine and dreamed of feeling for years. Now whenever I feel a flutter Tim and I start poking around as much as we can to see if we can properly feel baby again - poor thing!

Wednesday, September 3

Bump - 13 weeks.

These pics are from two weeks ago now - my tummy popped out bang on week 12, our scan had a wiggly little bubba in it and it was time to start treating this like it was for reals! Wowa. It's totally for reals!
Weeks 7 - 12 I was sick as, not really eating and doing all the sleeping. Whilst I'm still not averse to going to bed at 9pm, I'm over the moon to be eating (and cooking) again and gosh being able to tell people!

Monday, September 1


In the pipeline....

This baby of mine - a little wishful project. I'm attempting to take this passion of mine seriously and, with some amazing cheerleaders by my side, I'm taking the plunge tentatively getting my toes wet. Heck it's got a professional looking logo and a proper URL - that's something right??? I'm slowly notching up some weddings to my name - and well, there are plants growing if not flowering yet... From little things big things grow... I'll be posting flowery updates there if you're interested, and y'know on fbook too.

I did say babies didn't I? Well yes it's true, there's a human one brewing too... hi little person!

Today is the due date of our first baby and it is bittersweet, but mostly oh so sweet, to have this little one doing so well. Such a relief in fact. I (we) feel so so so lucky to be at this stage (15 weeks now)... at this stage.

So you may just find me blogging here more again with this thing happening. Something happy. Something not secret.

This is of course a hot topic, but blogging has changed so much, and in a way it may have come full circle... only a few dedicated old school (?) folks actually reading - maybe commenting (!!!) - and blogging becomes about the blogger again - not being the content provider for the reader.

I think with these two babies brewing, I'm pretty okay with that. I even have a bump photo to post!

Tuesday, August 26

Into the woods

August 2014. Snow in the heavenly magical place called the Sugar Pines.

PS. I'm alive :)

Monday, May 12


It had been a while since we travelled. This was a wonderful trip and one that was very hard to come home from. Lucky we love Lola so much...

Saturday, April 5


We're off to the UK for 3 weeks! A holiday is looooong overdue. This time were just squeezing in family and best friends and then taking some time for ourselves to go to Paris! Follow along on facebook or instagram for photo updates.
Much love.

{Amazing sunrise this week over the paddocks}

Tuesday, April 1

It's a rollarcoaster

Two weeks of feeling perfectly fine, chipper, normal. I get my period back - it's a reason to celebrate and also a twinge of pain. Coasting along coasting along. and then whoosh down I plummet into saddness. Another friend announces they're pregnant, they're due 4 weeks after we would have been.

my loss my loss my loss. my heartaches, my belly aches for my loss. Self saddness

we would have been 18 weeks. I would have been feeling it move.

I would have been I would have been...


Sunday, March 30

Flowers Lately

* Making a flower crown as a test for a friends wedding. Rosemary, carnation, chrysanthemum, sedum, lambs ear.
* A little jug of leftovers from crown making.
* A new awesome vase from the junk shop! Filled with roses, zinnias, buddleia, elderflower, potato vine from the garden.
* A birthday bouquet for my Mumma also from the garden. Rose, elderflower, fennel, lambs ears and white salvia plus some cuttings from a stunning weeping lime coloured tree that I don't know the name of.
* Mummas birthday cake. A lemon and blueberry number, filled with lemon curd and iced with cream cheese icing.

Monday, March 17

Tread Lightly

Sometimes only chocolate will do. Like when you see on facebook that an acquaintance has just had a baby and she has named her with your longstanding favourite baby name. The name that made you hope you were having a girl.

And it makes you smile at first because it affirms your good taste (the acquaintance is cool) and because you're so happy she's had a beautiful, healthy, baby girl. 

And then it makes you totally bummed (but in an embarrassed kinda way) coz - Dammit, YOU wanted that name. 

And then it smacks you in the guts. Real hard. And it really, really hurts and you're completely shocked by the force of it and left reeling by the heartache you thought you'd gotten over.

And so only chocolate will do. You cry on the phone to your mum in the dark of your porch. And you remind yourself to tread lightly, that you still have to tiptoe around some things. 

Like not listening to Bon Iver for the foreseeable future. 
Pretending that secret pinterest board you made doesn't exist. 
Getting your husband to deal with the birth preparation books from the library that are weeks overdue.
That kind of stuff. 

Tread lightly. Tread lightly.

Friday, March 7


It's been hard to write here for a little while. With happy secrets and then crushing sadness and hopefully in the not to distant future, fresh beginnings. Early miscarriage is so common and so not talked about. I dont want to talk about it - and yet - I was frustrated that I couldn't find anyone else who had. I guess that's why we don't traditionally share the news until we're at least twelve weeks. I was eleven.
I was planning on switching to more and more pictures rather than words here but in all honesty I haven't picked up the big camera in weeks - and that was only to take pictures which now no longer have a reason to exist.
I feel a little too exposed here these days. Google my name and this place is the second thing to come up - and the nice thing about a blog, I always found, was a little sense of mystery and anonymity. Especially when you are watched, and what feels like judged, for your job.
Maybe I'll keep posting recipes and maybe I'll keep posting about the garden (its doing great by the way) and maybe, maybe I'll keep posting about country life. But for now being present is keeping me occupied, that, and the garden.

{Image from here, if this is your image I would love to credit you properly}

Monday, January 20

Link Love*

* Actual toys...
* Just some bears, y'know.
* When dinosaurs come to play...
* Mental health on Sesame street...
* Best website for dog lovers ever.
* Who knew playing glass could be this good?!
* Amazing maps that explain the world.
* Beautifully lit films.
* My political bent is pretty obvious, but this is scary.

Friday, January 17

Things to be Thankful for

* Seed saving.
* My parents swimming pool.
* That thesis of Tim's has gone gone gone.
* Beautiful homegrown food
* Holidays.
* Air conditioning at work and in the car.
* That Australians take a perverse pride in suffering extreme heat (43 for us today)
* The Murrumbidgee river and its ice cold mountain source.
* Roses and agapanthus - they'll put up with anything.
* A better start to my working year than it ended.

{looking through the window of Centenary tower in Mt Gambier}

Thursday, January 16


Just the two of us, watching the sun go down over the sea and then all the cities fireworks at once from the hills. A blissful New Years Eve.